The same great story... Love & Music

Just told me he would happily marry Sierra Boggess and I was like…. ¬¬ yeah right! I would happily marry Tom Welling, Sean Faris & Nick Jonas too, what you do not know yet is that you will marry me someday… hahaha
Some weeks ago he lend me 3 Phantom of the Opera movie versions I had never seen before… 1925 Lon Chaney’s, 1943 Claude Rains’ & 1998 Julian Sands’… What can I say? I loved them so much! I watched the 5 movies in a row (including 1998 Englund’s & 2004 Buttler’s) What a PHANTOM Marathon! It does not matter the Phantom’s or Christine’s name, the place, the time, they always include the great aspects that make them be THE Phantom’s… Love & Music… If I had to order them from bad to good (none is bad, but I have to make a statement of which one I liked the most) this would be my order…

1943 Rains’…. “He was almost a stranger to me, and yet somehow I always felt drawn to him”
1998 Sands’…. “It is possible that without knowing anything about love I’ve fallen in love?”
1998 Englund’s…. “Now it’s just a matter of what you choose… Love, music they’re forever”
1925 Chaney’s ….” Since I first saw your face, this music has been singing to me of you and of love triumphant! “
2004 Buttler’s….”You alone can make my song take flight, help me make the music of the night”

These last days have been completely amazing, he has told me the same incredible things and even more, he misses me, and obviously I miss him as if I had lost a part of me… Not literally lost because we are still near and see each other but it feels like something is missing… Surely will it be a sign that it is not an obsession, that this is real… I cannot explain this feeling inside, I cannot put him from my mind, I think I am actually falling for him…
I have noticed that he is completely different with me than with other girls, he is much more caring, he hugs me every time we meet, we remember amazing things and talks we have shared, he says he is a jealous brother because of his sister’s suitors, we talk about many things, some are important some other make me laugh of how stupid they actually are…. I am supposed to be Russian and I am a vampire too, we convert each other, we cannot sleep, we want to appear telepathically on the other’s house, we are mad! But that is who I am, and I can be that stupid, smart, changing personality girl when I am with him, and guess what, he said he totally liked me that way! I just remembered a phrase from Samantha's Life After Phantom: Opera Erotica “I think the world of you and that will never change”. That phrase may explain everything he thinks of me. He also told me that being that enigmatic was what made me perfect for him, that he thought a lot of things about me, all good things, but he did not tell me… That may be good for me right?
I will stay like this, the more time passes the more I like him and the more soon I will tell him… Hopefully that time will arrive soon… “Somehow I know, this moment is waiting somewhere in time ...”

"Isn't there any Erik yet?"

I am feeling like writing here today...Like a week ago he asked me... "Isn't there any Erik in your life yet?" and I said "Only you..." ... Just kidding I answered "No, not yet :( "
A lot of things have changed a little bit... He is somehow diferent now from how he was on vacations, maybe that is normal, he can not be the same with everyone around... I am sure he feels something for me, not the same as the other girls, but not sure about what will he think when I finally tell him what I feel... I want to be his desired Christine (as he said)...
I wish I was 18 today so I could actually tell him... As I am not 18, I have to wait and see what happens with this feeeling, it may grow and turn into something stronger, it may run dry and stay just as an idea of my "perfect man"... I do not know, but he has totally changed my life; he has changed the way I think about everything, he has showed me that "thought" can lead you anywhere you want, can help you accomplish everything... He is just... HIM...

"Without ideals human evolution would be inexplicable"José Ingenieros

I will keep on dreaming my impossible dreams, and keep on trying when my arms are to weary to reach the unreachable star!! No doubt about it!!


I edited this picture, it is Christine (top left), Erik (bottom right), MY Erik (bottom left), Me, and some of my favorite Phantom quotations...(It has been labeled because if someone known sees this I would probably die...)
According to my obssesion with The Phantom of the Opera and all of that, there are some lyrics down here, Andrew Lloyd Webber wrote the song and it was actually used twice... once for "Learn to be Lonely" and the other one for "No one would listen" (I preffer the second one, sang by Gerard Buttler (Erik, The Phantom) because HE told me about it, was it a subliminal message? haha maybe...but it was a "bang" for both of us) Check them out! Thank you for reading... Phantom's Lady*

LEARN TO BE LONELY// NO ONE WOULD LISTEN
Child of the wilderness// Shamed into solitude
Born into emptiness// Shunned by the multitude
Learn to be lonely// I learned to listen
Learn to find your way in darkness//In my dark, my heart heard music
Who will be there for you, // I longed to teach the world
Comfort and care for you? // Rise up an reach the world
Learn to be lonely// No one would listen
Learn to be your one companion// I alone could hear the music
Never dreamed out in the world// Then at last a voice in the gloom
There are arms to hold you// Seemed to cry “I hear you”
You've always known // I hear your fears
Your heart was on its own //Your torment and your tears
So laugh in your loneliness // She saw my loneliness
Child of the wilderness// Shared in my emptiness
Learn to be lonely// No one would listen
Learn how to love life that is lived alone// No one but her heard as the outcast hears