I gave you my mind blindness...

"Trusting is most of the times abandoning yourself" ~ Victor Hugo (Les Miserables)

Everything was fine, I would even say everything was perfect between the guy and me. I believed every thing he said. I believed him when he told me he wanted to be with me, that he wanted to marry me, that he wanted everything with me...
It was Saturday, I entered his facebook. I saw it there. He had a girlfriend.
I couldn't believe it! It couldn't be true... What? A girlfriend? Really? What happened to the guy is was thinking of falling in love with? Where was my perfect man? The man of my dreams?
I couldn't find him. I still can't.
I don't know what was true for him, I am about to find out. Tomorrow I will.
I am sad, angry but above all, I am dissapointed. I can't believe it yet. What's worst of all is that he hasn't told me anything yet, instead he treats me as he always has, he continues telling me things that are far beyond normal.
I an dissapointed by knowing he is such a different man from what I thought he was, from what he showed me he was. My Phantom was indeed using a mask, not half of it, but an entire FAKE and horrible mask that fooled me.

What will come now? What will he tell me tomorrow? I don't know... I will go and tell him, I don't care what happens because I am "willing to march into Hell for a heavenly cause... To bear with unbearable sorrow... To right the unrightable wrong... To strove with my last ounce of courage..." ... Phantom's Lady*... Or should I say Phantom's Fool?

Noster amor vivet semper...

It is been a long, long time since that last entry, about 4 months...
When I look into his eyes I get to see something unexplainable, that kind of sight that is sincere, happy, trustful. That sight that is telling you eveything but at the same time is quiet...
I could stay lost in that sight forever, hour and hours, and the world would be the best place ever. Just him and me, looking into our eyes, knowing that the other is showing one's soul, one's mind, one's true face. Staring, without glancing anywhere else...

We have talked on the MSN and used the webcam often. He hardly ever smiles, but when we see each other through the camera, he just can not stop... We say nonsense things, blabberies, jokes... But joke by joke the truth appears behind...
We do things, well, at least I do things that I would not even think of doing or saying with someone else. And I am sure he is like that too.
Do you remember we said we were "vampires, siblings, gods"? Lately we have been inventing these "attacks" relating the vampire-love-UFFF (exciting) stuff...
I will it in one phrase for you all "Don't say everything you think, but think everything you say" just to give you and idea of that whole aspect...

I love our talks, they are fun, deep, sincere, likeable, exciting... simply AMAZING! I can assure again that We've passed the point of no return...

I wil go on like this, lets see what happens, each day that crawls by I am more sure about this... HE IS THE ONE!

"Supra amor vulgi, noster amor vivet semper" (Beyond any "human" love, our love will live forever)...